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too busy to read the description. will do that later

Infinity KB? o.O

Zzzz....

using MegaUpload instead...
in case anyone's interested: Silver Hawk's OST
it's awesome... at least to me, i'm kinda biased in a way.. x)

( this morning i woke up to a tune with words stuck to my head. )

now i'm attempting to record CVC's stuff into a database instead of in a excel file, because I am an avid excel hater, that's cause i'm a noob, but anyway.. database is way cooler. x) but then it's been years since i last used Microsoft Access and now I'm confused. >< i dont know how to use!!! *faints*
and i'm supposedly in my Degree in Computing Studies going in final year... ugh. epic freaking fail. x(

( degree's ridiculous standards )

ytd i realized how fat i am.
no. that's not exactly true.
i've ALWAYS known how fat i am, just that spine of mine prefers to laze around than to do anything productive (unless you consider staring at all things Huddy productive. x))
so anyway, as i was saying (before i was rudely interrupted by myself), i saw last sunday's video and i realized how fat i am.
i'm not stupid.
i know i'm plump all along, but i never realized it was THAT obvious.
i'm starting to look pregnant.
not "seriously, you're 3 months pregnant, we never realized!" pregnant but "is it a boy or a girl?" pregnant.
and i've decided before i start to be "have you chosen the name yet?" or "when's the shower?" pregnant,
( i have to start my gym. )
today, i seem to accomplish much more, (which is why i'm bragging right now, lmao) my final stats on the treadmill is...
Distance: 21.2 (i assume km?)
Calories: 232 (i think it counts as ntg if i eat a bowl of noodles right now)
Heartrate: 167! (woOt... i only check my pulse after, cuz it's hard to check your pulse when you're running anyways. i check ytd that my heart rate should not go over 170.. oops, that was close)
Time: 30mins..

overall, i'm very satisfied.
i might actually enjoy this.
hopefully this will stick, so i'll be slim non-pregnant again. :)

hey peeps.
i've got my actual result.
it's written in such detail and in so many different numbers that i need Kim Yen to help me decipher.. =.=
anyways...
the results are in numbers, which means it's not in grades (the only grades given were P = pass)
thank God I passed all.
at least that's a huge relief that I dont have to resit.

overall it's quite similar to what I expected in the earlier post.
but since i predicted it in grades instead of actual marks, i'm not sure to be satisfied or disappointed.
my assignment based subjects got a major kick in the ass.
aside from that, the results are... acceptable?
like i said, i'm not sure if it's good or bad or in between.
i'm pestering my lecturer to ask how much is considered 1st class, 2nd upper, lower, 3rd class, pass etc.

conclusion: it's okay?

p.s. i just realized my tag originally meant to be "degree life is just a time used to screw with your brain" is now "degree life is just a time used to screw" o.O i dont even know it's because i accidentally leave it out or lj cut it (because only i will use tags more than 9 words). lol.. i'm imagining my dad reading this tag and freaking out. lmao... x)

just got Kim Yen's email ytd.
saying our much awaited dreaded results are in.
so i'm picking it up this afternoon during my lunch break.

i really dunno what to expect.
in diploma, i was looking forward to my results because I know roughly what grade i'm getting, pretty much what stays afloat, what sinks, and i'm fairly confident with my subjects except maybe an occasional one or two subjects where i totally sucked (Mathematical Techniques - lousiest grade EVER! ><)
right now, i'm about to get my entire Year 2 grade and I'm pretty much freaked.
i have 6 subjects per sem but 4 which are carried over to 2nd sem. so basically (4+2+2 = 8 total).

( My prediction for my subjects )

dad's picking me up at 1pm to go for lunch and to collect my results.
i just hope i wont be too disappointed.
i dont even dare to think of the F word.
updates in 3 hours.

P.S. if you really wanna know exactly HOW crappy my degree life is, it's in another locked journal.
you may ask for the password, but i'll only give to a few people.
there's somemany things that should not be written here.

i finally created another lj acc.
it shall be where i vent my innermost secrets after my blogspot has been breached.
where i shall be who i am.
where i'm allowed to say everything w/o being judged.
i think just for security sakes i wont post my username anywhere.
yes, i'm a person with serious trust issues, i know.
if you want to know, i might just let you.
but of course, not even 3 people make it to the list,
so dont be surprised or insulted if you're not.
it's really me who have this prob, it's ntg against you.

btw, do you know the reason why i cant create an account earlier? because lj has alot of really damn strict rules about choosing your passwords...ughhh.. absolutely nothing must be repeated, must have numbers, at least 4 diff chars blablablablabla... =.= i'm creating a blog, for goodness sakes. not joining the fbi. =.=

tbh, i think this has been one of the crappiest year of my life.
i've my motivation to do anything.
i feel like a zoombie just roaming around.
one major thing?
too hard to choose...
there's too many things i want to change.
but i really wished i can just stay outstation (preferably UK, possibly with my bro)
just to get away from everything.
besides, when i get like extremely bored, i can just step outside and breathe the COOL air without risking myself to skin cancer and listening to British accent (which is just soooooooo sexy... xP).
Of course, to be able to actually stay in UK would mean i have to be RICH first to afford it.

and possibly pick a gorgeous blue/green eyed english rich hunk
anyway, enough dreaming....

I finished my House Season 5. trilled for huddy but (ok, so i'm slightly annoyed by the "it's a hallucination" part, but i'm still squeeing) it means i now have to wait very long before i get to watch Season 6... ><

now all i have to do is start dumping my lappie with loads of HQ pics for me to start photoshopping. It's been a while (since I stopped Talk CSI, only a few times for Rufly, Kate Walsh and my recent dp change) I'm making manips again. :) and I made myself an avvie from one of it.
( click for manips )

i've also changed my addie mood theme to this lovely animated huddy moodtheme by the wonderful red_blotch. I'll probably be changing my header to a huddy one soon (if i can find some decent quality huddy pics)

i tried to create another lj acc
like 15 times or so.
didnt bloody work.
wth.. =.=
it didnt even say WHY it didnt work...
it just look like it kept refreshing...
EPIC FAIL, man.
apparently the site that we made is more intelligent.
so wanna boast to my clients right now.

ok, i'm in a real crappy mood.
not to mention, i cant even RANT ABOUT IT IN A NEW BLOGGGGGG!!!
oy yoy yoy..
just when i come up with a username that i LOVE that nobody has stolen it yet!
=.=

reli feeling pissy right now.
need my House BTS now.

On FB, i mean, not here....
i have only like 6 friends or smtg here.. =.="
i have 1096 friends on FB (776 of which i added specifically for Game Apps)
i plan to keep my mafia buddies which is about 350 or so....
so to choose 426 ppl to cut.
interesting.

recently, ppl have been mass adding me like crazy!!!
and i'm sure they're bots, because who mass adds me with almost the exact tagline "hi, lets play together"
ughhh.. sounds so perverted. =.=

and i have proof...



srsly, it's turning fb to myspace.. =.=
and whassup with the chinese porno mails spamming me! gahhhhh... it's obvious the 'delete and block' button doesnt work.. >

i used to find twitter boring...
well duh, i have absolutely no followers, except twitter itself.. =.=
and basically i update FB more...

but recently has been a change of events.
i love twitter.
follow celebrities (that I actually like)
and most importantly, ( GETTING REPLIES FROM THEM! o.O )
btw, i finally got watch My Sister's Keeper (movie, not book. i've read the book a million times), Personal Effects and Cheri. will review it later. :)

1. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say: ' I am very rich. Marry me! ' - That's Direct Marketing'

2. You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl. One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you says: ' He's very rich. 'Marry him.' -That's Advertising'

3. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and get her telephone number. The next day, you call and say: ' Hi, I'm very rich. 'Marry me - That's Telemarketing'

4. You're at a party and see gorgeous girl. You get up and straighten your tie, you walk up to her and pour her a drink, you open the door (of the car)for her, pick up her bag after she drops it, offer her ride and then say:'By the way, I'm rich. Will you 'Marry Me?' - That's Public Relations'

5. You're at a party and see gorgeous girl. She walks up to you and says:'You are very rich! 'Can you marry ! Me?' - That's Brand Recognition'

6. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say: 'I am very rich. Marry me!' She gives you a nice hard slap on your face. - ' That's Customer Feedback '

7. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say: 'I am very rich. Marry me!' And she introduces you to her husband. - 'That's demand and supply gap'

8. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and before you say anything, another person come and tell her: 'I'm rich. Will you marry me?' and she goes with him - 'That's competition eating into your market share'

9. You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and before you say: 'I'm rich, Marry me!' your wife arrives. - ' That's restriction for entering new markets '

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found Brandon's blog through MYWT...
so surprised that he accomplished so much in a few years!
wow.... i mean if i can be even half as successful as he is... he's only 27! although he only looks like my age.. xP

I went to youtube and randomly click on one of the video suggestions that you may like link for Lorelai talks too much and guess what?

MELORA IS IN IT! lol....
she's EVERYWHERE!
it's amazing...
i dunno how she does it!
and and andddddddd
she has time to FB.. xP
and and ANNDDDDDDD
she said thanks to me...
lol... i sound like a total dork.. ><

like woOOTTTT....
i search for her name on FB (srsly she's like the coolest ever) and her profile appears, and being all crazy and stuff, i added her with a msg that says smtg like i'm a new fan of hers and would like to b her friend.
then when i come back from dinner, i saw this...




<> see the notification?! SEE IT?! I'm like o.O
and then i open my email and there it is again...




o.O

and and anddddd



okayyyyy... i need to breathe.

also, i found out that i misinterpreted Gildart's email... his "you can buy it for $19.95 plus shipping" means the price for the DVD is $19.95 and u must add in shipping too not DVD including shipping is $19.95. doink! how stupid am i.... including shipping and taxes! omg... dunno dad allow me to buy anot.. ><
please please puhleaseeeee let me buy... it'd b my 21st yr old bday gift, k? u can save the money to buy this instead of a gold/silver necklace with a key on it (i have plenty of keys, my dear)

Tags: actress:melora hardin, blog, fb, movie:you, my 21st, o.o

i really think i might be pregnant.
not like REALLY pregnant, but i sure feel like dat.
That lump sitting on my stomach is growing (it's almost bigger than Wai Peng's actual 5-months pregnant belly.. =.=)
not to mentioned I've been having way too many mood swings to be a non-pregnant woman. Zzzz...
and I slept before 10pm yesterday! I mean wth, i used to sleep at 3/4am, but i was so darn tired and sleeeeppyyyy that i cant even open my laptop to cont. House. ughhh...

and my mood swings. srsly. i can be hyper this minute and totally emo the next. or even blow up the next. one minute i'm excited (over you, then i'm emo because of all sorts of reasons and then frustrated.
my brain is killing me. the voices (you know, the ones that WONT shut up) kept having arguments or really heated "discussions" of my life and actions in my head, i really feel like yelling at them "HEY! ARE YOU ABOUT FINISHED?! SHHHHUUUTUTTTUUUPPPPP!!!" yeesshhhh...

i really think there's something wrong with my hormone levels. maybe i should take a pill or smtg.. =.=

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anyway, i just had a great dinner. and i changed my twitter background! yes, i'm on twitter and I've also changed my profile pic on FB and LJ.
A Fine Frenzy's Near To You was stuck in my head all day so I changed my FB status and MSN pm to the lyrics and everyone was like, omg, what happen to you and all comforting me. i was really surprised that so many people reacted to it but i'm fine, really.
although that status wasnt totally random, it definitely have some truth in it, but i wasnt really in an emo mode, so i'm fine.

sidenote: i have been replaying Rufly scenes again, and I've concluded that I need a Rufus in my life. *sigh* and I wanna watch S3!!! and DONT YOU DARE prospone the Rufly wedding again or I'll hunt you down and shoot you! terrified enough to write a happy ending for Rufly?! xP


and and anddddd... I NEED A CREDIT CARD TO BUY YOU!!!! Mom and Maliya's out because of the whole I'm-paranoid-over-internet-shopping thing, so now dad's the best candidate. So please please pretty pretty really pretty PUHHHLLEEAASSEEEEE let me buy it, dad... i'll pay you back.... i just want the movie. and the special features. and Melora and Gildart's autograph!!! Email me at the same time and Melora and I will sign it for you! from Gildart's email!!! gahhhh... i really have to get my hands on it!!

looks like i'm back to hyper mode again.

It's been a while.
Especially when i checked my records.
It's been more than half a year already.
I thought it will be awkward but it seems easier now.

Just thought i tell you that what my display pic says now.
You're always on my mind. <3 especially today.

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side note: I've gain interest in Melora Hardin these days, maybe it's because of seeing her as Trudy and as the elf-ish principal and the foreman and finding out she's the bug lady in FRIENDS!!!! o.O and she's in 27 dresses too!!! o.O so so so odd now that i know... lol... i'm considering The Office but Steve Carell is making me hold back, i mean it's enough that he's in the show but to be Melora's love interest?! YIKES. but what I really really REALLY want is to watch Melora's YOU, but i have to purchase it online! >< where can i get my hands on a credit card?

Everything goes smooth but it takes only a few seconds to ruin it.
I really feel like that tonight.
When I come back and hear this song, the lyrics fits so perfectly to what I'm feeling right now.

( slow it down, make it stop )

Whoever who writes this is a genius.
He/She probably stole the words from my brain.

my friends list, I want to know 28 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never really clicked, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don't. You are obviously on my flist, so let me know with whom I'm friends! (and to those who are not but dont mind being my friend, write it too, so i can add you.. )

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarky) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!)
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

I reread my entries of my previous blog.

So much things have changed but love remains the same.

I posted 2 mash result in my previous blog, all the results are different except for the first field, now more than a year later, the first field still remains the same.

how long should an obsession last?

shouldnt it end when i say it did?

yet a year later, i'll still obsessed.

truth to be told, i think i forget what it's like to look at him in a different light that i used to.

this is one of my favourite songs:

( Gavin Rossdale - Love Remains The Same )

I had the urge to announce something...
wanted to use FB to announce...
but for the sake of my friends (and family!), i better announce it here than FB...

click if you must..
you KNOW you want to....
and yet you're scared... ><
( viewer discretion is advised )

just a shout out to teddymumu, i'm so glad she's on lj....
i need more friends here, i feel very pathetic... ><
ah yuan.... WELCOME!! :)

this goes to all my friends out there!!!
JOIN LJ!!!!!
not that this might work, seeing as most of my friends are not exactly english dominant and lj seems a bit too caucasian.. ><

side note: when i left a comment on ah yuan's lj, i notice it's 22nd of july...
suddenly remembered what today was.
i have an odd feeling about it.
i cant believe it's been 2 years already.
time flies.
so many things have changed.
and so many things have not.